Chapter 2
In the dingy dressing room hung with exaggerated costumes,
Rupa finished painting her eyes before a tall mirror cracked from top to
bottom. Beyond the door a gay piano piece led six dancers across the wooden
floor in perfect, pounding unison. Rupa drew a steady black line just below her
lower lashes. She wrapped herself in the last layers of her sheer orange
costume and stretched her legs, her arms, her neck one more time. She looked
around the chaotic room, stale with the smell of sweat and grease, and thought
how far away India
was, how far away her father’s house. No one must find her here; surely no one
would look in a place like this. She hugged herself, counting up what she had
lost and what she had gained by the hard decisions made in her sixteen years.
Here, on a
narrow street in Marseilles,
just a stone’s throw from the docks, sat the tavern that had become her home.
Like everything in this port city, it catered to crews tumbling off ships,
rough men eager for food, drink, and the smell of perfume. On this particular
evening, Monsieur Vaudin, proprietor of La Coquette, had just finished hanging
the new sign he had ordered, featuring the establishment’s name skillfully
painted onto a wooden replica of a woman’s calf. And tonight he would be
introducing Rupa to his clientele.
It had been a long time since his troupe had
included an Indian, not since the last one ran off with a captain from Istanbul. But this girl
was better in every respect: younger, prettier, a gifted dancer, and more
docile. When she came to him two months ago she was almost skeletal, but even
her jutting bones could not disguise her beauty. He had fed her and fattened
her to an attractive size, although she would always be small. He had watched
her practice with the other girls and could not help noticing a natural grace
and fluidity to her movements. He dubbed her La Petite Violette. Tonight she would
debut with a solo performance of a veiled dance for which he had gone to some
expense with a silk merchant two streets over.
By eight
o’clock the tavern had filled up, as usual, with a handful of locals as well as
captains and crew from ports all around the Mediterranean.
Many were regulars, but others had been drawn in by flyers that promised a new
talent performing a never-before-seen dance that would set even the sternest
seaman’s heart thumping. Come see for yourself La Petite Violette.
Rupa heard
the piano player hammer out the final notes, heard the audience whistle and
stamp their feet. In a great rush six girls tumbled into the dressing room,
jostling each other in their bulky skirts. They fell exhausted onto benches and
wiped the perspiration from their faces and arms. Unfastening the hooks of
their bodices, they glanced expectantly at Rupa. They could hear Monsieur
Vaudin intoning her introduction. Rupa tiptoed through the open door to the
dark curtain beside the stage and waited for her cue. Monsieur Vaudin’s voice
stopped and the plaintive notes of an Asian flute took its place. Rupa looked
back at the oldest girl, who stood in the doorway watching.
“Vas-y,
vas-y,” the girl encouraged her, making a shooing motion with both hands. “Go
on. You’ll do fine.”
Rupa held
her breath and stepped into the harsh light of the stage, carefully keeping her
eyes away from the men spread out before her. She felt their eyes on her and
smelled the sting of tobacco, catching her breath as the smoke entered her
lungs. She felt exposed, like a fleeing fawn forced into an open field. But no
one could know her here. She somehow remembered what the girls had told
her—forget the audience and listen to the music. Closing her eyes, she drove
her attention back to the mournful flute and arched her back. She took the
first step, the second, and let the music pull her along. Little Violette
danced, her sheer veils floating around her with each liquid swivel and leap.
Before she realized it, the dance was over, and she looked out on the men as
they roared their approval. She felt frightened, almost in peril, until she
caught sight of Monsieur Vaudin in the back, applauding slowly and nodding his
approval.
The second
show went more easily than the first, and Rupa found herself smiling as she
bowed gracefully at the finish with the last notes of the flute trailing off.
Her head pounding from the smoke and excitement, she made her way up the tight
staircase to the little room she shared with two other girls. A small window faced
the sea that glittered darkly beyond the tiled rooftops. She went to it and
stood with her elbows on the sill looking out to the water and wondering which
way she would sail to find a certain man who had saved her from one fate
without dreaming she would run to this.
And she
thought about the tiny baby left in a basket by the convent’s kitchen. The nuns
had been so good to her, and she flushed when she thought of how she had run
out on them. But she could not stay at the convent where Phillip had brought
her—although thousands of miles from India, it was still too easy to
find. Her father might pick up the scent any day and fall upon her. She
pictured his eyes, round with rage, and his terrible strength. The last time
she saw him angry, their servant had barely survived the beating, and she
remembered the sound of the blows as her father brought down the baton on his
back and head.
Rupa
pressed her hands to her eyes to push back the tears. Was all this pain worth
the mad flight? Had she made a terrible mistake? In answer, an image of herself
as the disgraced daughter—or worse still, as Manindra’s bride—flashed into her
mind, and she knew that she was willing to run her whole life long.
Chapter 3
Maria looked out a foyer window between the pane’s deep
etchings.
“Guests,
Madam. I see trunks on top. What shall we do?”
“Oh, my.”
Agnes instinctively tucked loose strands of hair up and under. “The Bairnaughts
must have found a quicker connection. I do wish people would not improvise in
the middle of traveling, it throws things off so.”
“Ma’m, I
believe it’s your Aunt and her companion. I think I recognize her baggage.”
“Oh, well
that’s easier at least. You absolutely never know with Aunt Vera, anyway. She
could arrive two days early or a week late.
The carriage,
which was now directly in front of the entrance, turned off to the right. “Oh,
they must be headed for the porte cochère,” observed Marie.
“That’s
very much Aunt Vera—keep them guessing, even about which door you’ll come in.”
Fettles reappeared, slightly out of
breath, to report that the footmen had the snake cornered in the pantry and
should have no trouble bagging him.
“Very good, Fettles,” sighed Agnes
in relief. “It seems my Aunt and Mr. Schmidt have arrived well ahead of
schedule. Would you please welcome them and offer them some tea, of course,
while I dress. Do you know whether Mrs. Williams remembered to put Mr. Schmidt
at the other end of the hall from Aunt Vera?”
“Oh, yes,
they are in the distant corners. Your aunt has the ivory room, as you
requested, and Mr. Schmidt looks out toward the stables.”
“Excellent.
Oh, and Fettles--” Already proceeding to intercept the early arrivals, Fettles
stopped himself.
“Close some
of these windows, please.”
“Of
course.”
Agnes took
a step. “And one more thing,” Fettles caught himself in the passage doorway and
turned again. “Ask Dahlia to get a light lunch together for us to eat in about
an hour. But no chicken—Aunt Vera refuses to eat it since she saw one killed
behind the kitchen last year. And send Marie up if you see her—I don’t know
where she has disappeared to.”
Fettles
waited. “That’s all. Thank you, Fettles.” The butler bolted away in his usual
manner, like one sprung from a trap, to check on the efforts of the footmen.
As Agnes hurried up the stairs, she
heard the distant exclamations of her aunt. If Agnes’s life had been one
prescribed by duty and tradition, her aunt’s was the opposite. No experience
was too risky, no taste too foreign, for Vera to try it on. Twenty years
earlier, she had cut her hair and dressed in homespun to sign up with the Union
Army at Albany.
Being of rather boyish proportions, she was accepted and uniformed without
question under the name Julian Howard.
Vera’s hobby of marksmanship stood her
in good stead at three battles, from which she emerged with no more than
scratches. But the endless marches and lack of sanitation became more than she
could stand. When the captain asked for volunteers to staff a field hospital in
Virginia, she
raised her hand. The captain had noticed a certain daintiness about the recruit
and doubted he would last on the trail much longer, so with a warm handshake
and best wishes, he gave up the odd marksman to service as a nurse. Before
arriving at the hospital, Vera peeled off and buried her filthy Union uniform,
bathed in a creek, and donned a dress she had stolen for the occasion from a
soldier’s wife at their last encampment. (She did, however, leave two dollars
clipped to the clothesline where the dress had hung.)
She arrived
at the hospital late that day, after rubbing the letter “n” off her paperwork,
presenting herself as Julia Howard, nurse volunteer, ready for duty. The
hospital was a once glorious plantation home wrested from its owners and
pressed into service for the North’s dying and wounded. Vera would say that she
met the only man she ever loved there, where he lay in a corner of the dining
room, bandaged about the head and missing a left arm and foot. She tended him
for six weeks, falling in love with his stories and his soft eyes, those eyes
that followed her as she stepped gently over the soldiers, handing out water
and changing dressings.
What she did not know was that the hand he lost had
worn a gold band that was now tucked into his jacket pocket, a memento he never
revealed. When a letter from his wife finally reached the hospital, it fell to
Vera to read it to him, owing to his sight being badly damaged from the
explosion that took his limbs. That torture had a lasting impression on
her—reading a wife’s declarations of love and news of their children to a man
who had in every way possible encouraged her affections. She never again
trusted herself in the matter of men and pursued a life of independent
adventures.
By
contrast, Agnes felt her own life was narrow and hardly deserving of comment.
She had few stories to tell. And time was passing faster and faster, still with
no husband to share the work or joy of life.
Lately,
Agnes looked more closely into the mirror on her dresser. Sometimes she picked
it up and moved nearer to the window to check the lines forming at the corners
of her eyes, the definition coming into her brows, the hardening of her mouth.
She had always told herself that she would not be a woman to fuss over age and
run from wrinkles. Gray hair had a beauty of its own, and she would be
perfectly happy when it came time for her deep brown waves to lose their color.
“A woman
must walk into winter gracefully,” her mother had often said, “or she’ll look
the fool, wearing her summer hat to an ice-skating party.” And mother had
managed that feat of grace like no one else. Mrs. Somerset’s long hair had
turned gray early, and Agnes remembered no other color on her. Her mother wore
it piled on her head with jeweled combs setting off its own dull shine, combs
Agnes’s father brought home from his distant travels.
But it was
different for Mother, Agnes brooded in her moments of self-pity. She had
Father. They married young when she was beautiful and he was dashing, and she
was not, at thirty-two, trying to win a man. Mother knew who she was and what
she had to do, every day. Life did not scare her; life was at her service.
Agnes had
not inherited her mother’s beauty or her tall, delicate body. She mirrored
instead her grandmother’s short, sweet frame with soft, rounded shoulders and
full hips. She even had Grandma’s gentle brown eyes, her dainty mouth, and
beautiful hands. No, Elizabeth
was the one who took after Mother in nearly every way. Agnes adored her older
sister and still felt a dull shock to her chest whenever she remembered how
swiftly the infection had carried her off, leaving one daughter on the verge of
marriage, their darling Stella.
As she
stood before the wardrobe unbuttoning her work clothes, Agnes imagined the
lunch she was about to share with Aunt Vera and Mr. Schmidt. They would sit on
the terrace and listen to Vera’s latest tales, laughing and exclaiming, and
this was wonderful and as it should be. We can’t all be adventurers, she
reminded herself; some must stay home and keep things running. Day after day
and year after year. But Agnes knew in her heart that this life suited her well
and only occasionally did she wish for more. That is, besides having a man to
call her own, and that particular emptiness pulled at her heart more and more.
Agnes took from
its hook the rose-colored chambray with pale blue bows running down the
sleeves, one of her favorites. Marie, who was a genius with a needle, had
converted several of Agnes’s best dresses, including this one, to the new
slimmer look by removing the bustles. Agnes was thus spared the expense and
aggravation of ordering an entire new wardrobe while enjoying immensely the
liberty to now sit properly against the backs of chairs.
A soft
knock came at the door, and Marie entered. “Oh, your pink, ma’m, it’s still
missing a bow on one sleeve.”
Agnes dropped
the dress over one arm and put her hands over her face. She drew a slow,
deliberate breath. Marie waited.
“Maybe this
was a mistake,” Agnes confessed from behind her hands. She peered at her maid
over her fingertips. “Don’t you think so, Marie? Once again I am probably
trying to do too much. Who decreed that we needed all this ado over our
hundredth anniversary? Well, I did, of course! I set myself and everyone else
chasing through several circles of hell to make something grand happen, but
why, really? And then we’re all exhausted by the time it begins.”
“Ma’m you
are hardest on yourself,” Marie asserted. “All of us are doing fine. It’s
exciting to have a party now and then, and if there’s a little extra work, no
one minds.”
“You don’t
mind. I don’t think you speak for Mrs. Williams or even Fettles. They both look
like they are pondering getting up a mutiny.”
Marie
laughed. “How you talk, Miss Agnes! That’s not anywhere near true.”
Agnes held
out the pink dress. “I doubt anyone will
notice the missing bow—it is surely the least of our flaws. I’m in the mood for it, Marie, so I’m wearing
it! Have you seen my little silver cross? It was missing yesterday.”
“Yes, ma’m,
I just put it back in your drawer last night. I polished all your silver
things.”
“Marie, you
are a gift.” Marie helped Agnes into her dress and fastened the delicate silver
chain behind her neck. Agnes sat down in front of the mirror and straightened
her sleeves. “I think this dress is getting too young for me. I might send it
to Stella. I wish she would have come, it’s been so long since I’ve seen her.”
“We are a
long way from Chicago,
ma’m, and her being in a family way makes it hard, you know.”
“Oh, but
she’s only a few months along and feeling perfectly healthy. She said so in her
last letter. I suspect her husband is being overprotective and worrying her
with all sorts of disasters that could befall her if she travels. You know that
once the baby is born it will be a long time before she’ll want to take a trip
out here. Traveling with children is so difficult.”
“Yes,
ma’m,” Marie braided Agnes’s dark hair and wound it artfully into loops that
hung across the back of her neck.
Marie knew
about traveling with children. Some twenty years earlier, at the age of eight,
she had traveled with her mother and baby brother, along with the remnants of
the family that had owned them, to New
York City. Half starved, they had turned their backs
on their Mississippi
home, the burned crops, the graves of their men, and headed north to find
work—any work. Marie had loved Mistress Dickinson and learned reading and
arithmetic at her knee. Her owners’ daughters were almost sisters to Marie
except for the chores that never fell to them. She did not know until later how
fortunate she had been compared to most of her black brethren. Together, in
that crisis, the ragtag group operated more like an extended family than slaves
and masters, and lived together in the huge, pounding city for several weeks until
different fates pulled them in separate directions.
“You do
have beautiful hair, Miss Agnes. It sure does remind me of your mother’s, may
she rest in peace.”
“Yes, and
it’s turning her color at a frightening rate.”
“No, ma’m!
I don’t see but a strand or two of silver, and it’s always the same—never
more.”
Agnes turned
her head from side to side in the mirror. “I choose to believe you, Marie. All
right, let’s go down and hear what new revolution my aunt has lent her hand
to.”
To be continued
